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directly hopeless
England was very gloomy and the area around
James Senior's house
was extremely gray and inactive. I typed letters and took the tube
down to Victoria and then to Picadilly Station. My host was reserved
and seemed physically at odds with his rather extreme ideas.
John Duncan
tape-recorded himself having sex with a corpse. With what he
later described as "intense self-disgust" he returned to the
United States to have a vasectomy, in order, he later wrote, "to
make sure that the last potent seed I had spent was with a cadaver."
When I saw her leave I got off of the crates which constituted my bed
and stepped cautiously into the bare yard. On one side stood a
whitewashed and crumbling stone wall, with a single picture dangling
from a nail. It was a weatherbeaten watercolor of the sky, with a cracked
frame. I stared into the vacant sunlight, the electric lines buzzing on
all sides. It began to rain. It was then that I realized that I was still
sitting at my table and looking into a jam-jar filled with water and
the sheets of paper all around.